LOVE is like MAGIC ..but sometimes, MAGIC is nothing more than just an ILLUSION ..

Saturday, February 16, 2013

bunch of craps..

hey all..
okay, honestly, i didnt do much writing dis lately..not in here, not in my diary..so, i dunno wut happened, but somehow, my english became sucks. LOL! seriously. i cant even remember how to spell 'reminiscing' for god's sake! yeap, i googled it..its dat bad..

so here i am..try to be awesome as before..pffttt... xp

everyone that knows me probably will know that music is my life..no, i didnt sing or write songs, nope..i simply listen to them..A LOT. back then when i wasn't driving, i'd pop in my earphone and just walk..doesn't matter d distance..the farther, the better..actually, u wont find me without music..even in d bathroom, i wud bring in my phone, hang it by d door, and, well, play songs. even nowadays, my mp3 is still kinda sorta my life..though i cant put them on while im driving..but hey, there's a radio in my car eh? =) though again, none cud beat d feeling of music in ur ears..i meant it..in ur ears..so basically, earphone, in ur ear..not just simply listening through the speaker..

so, for me, d most important part in music is d lyrics..although i cud not really explain when it comes to kpop or hindie or any other songs from other languages..of course i cant understand them..even certain songs are not lyrical at all such as techno..yet still, i listen to them..but what i meant is usually some of d lyrics are what really gets to me..not d entire song but certain line of lyrics..and those songs with such lyrics are always be d one that ended up on my GoList..

it was one of my habit to wrote down those lyrics and rearranged them, then put it in a paragraph, till it became, well, kinda like a story..then, i stopped, of course..cant tell why..well, my point is, i wanna try and do it again..let's see if d talent is still there..

hello there, the angel from my nightmare..i can't believe u were the one, to build me up and tear me down..well i never saw it coming, should have started running long, long time ago..look at this photograph.. every time i did it makes me laugh..i was june and u were my johnny cash, and the one without the other, we made a pact..u took my hand, u showed me how..u promised me, u'll be around..i took your words and i believed in everything u said to me..remember when we were such fools, and so convinced and just too cool? we could live like jack and sally if we want, where u can always find me..we'll have halloween on christmas, and in the night we'll wish this never ends..i remember all those crazy things u said, all those crazy things we did..like a little school mate in the school yard, we'll play jacks and uno cards..i'll be your bestfriend and u'll be my valentine..yes you can hold my hand if u want to cuz i wanna hold yours too..we'll be playmates and lover and share our secret worlds..i wish you were here..talked about the future like we had a clue..never planned that one day, i'd be losing you..was it something i did? was it something you said? i dont want to live a day without u..i just want to be the one that makes you happy..now and then i think of when we were together..like when you said you felt so happy, u cud die..we were meant to be, supposed to be, but we've lost it..so much for my happy ending..have you ever loved someone so much, u'd give an arm for? not the expression, no, literally give an arm for..but what happens when karma turns right around and bites you? what happens when you become the main source of his pain? we did not plan it to be this way..but things have gotten so bad between us, i dont see us being together ever again, like we used to be..but then of course things always happens for a reason..i guess it was never meant to be..and its just something that we have no control over and that's what destiny is. but no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep..maybe one day we'll wake up, and this will all just be a dream..now i heard u moved on..all these money cant buy me a time machine..its time to face the music, im no longer your mused. a new notch in your belt is all i ever be..and i realize the blame is on me..now u're just somebody that i used to know..i wake up in the morning..put on my face..the one thats gonna get me, through another day..doesnt really matter, how i feel inside..life is like a game sometimes..i cant remember when i didnt live through this disguise..i stuck in this life, i didnt ask for..what am i supposed to do when the best part of me was always you..?? what am i supposed to say when im all choked up and u're okay?? i try to say goodnye and i choked, try to walk away and i stumbled, though i try to hide it, its clear..my world crumbles when u are not near..so how do i say? do i say goodbye? the last kiss, i'll cherish until we meet again..i'll always look back, as i walk away..this memories will last, for eternity..time makes it harder, i wish i cud remember..but i keep your memory, you visit me in my sleep..when i found my way back, to your arms again..but until that day, u know you are, d king of my heart..you said move on, where do i go? i guess the second best is all i will know..cuz when im with him i am, thinking of you, what you wud do if you were the one who was spending the night..i wish that i was looking into your eyes..and i'm gonna miss you like a child misses her blanket but i got to get a move on in my life..its time to be a big girl now..and big girl dont cry..fairytales dont always have a happy ending do they? but that was love and its an ache i still remember. but just because it hurts doesnt mean you gonna die, u gotta get up and try..nevermind i'll find someone like you..i wish nothing but the best for you..i'll keep u lock in my head, untill we meet again..i wont forget you my friend..

hah! take that..!! woah, i guess i really do miss writing huh..hehe..none would read this long craps..but i'm happy..=) i need to do this much often..i need to listen to more songs..haha..well, thats it..till later..bye2..