me..

its a big turn off for me when a guy said 'ish, dah besar pun na g funfair ke..merepek je..'

yea...
i'm a big girl who loves all the fun stuff including the funfair..
i'm a big girl who still hasn't lost her touch with her inner child..
i'm a big girl who loves to have nonsense conversation and act ridiculously..

i would appreciate anyone who would cope and entertain me as myself..
but i would rather having someone who would not only would cope and entertain me,
but also would love and be as excited as i am with all those act..! =)

i am a girl who would
love to play around, splashing water, throwing flour, run here and there..
get excited whenever i see a funfair..
talks a lot whenever i'm comfortable..
fall down, knock my head around, stumble here and there, misplace things..
love to eat and drink lots of water..
cry for cats..
stop by the road side to feed stray cats..
slap, tug, pinch you on your face and hair..
hold your hand, chew your finger, play with your fingers..
sleep on you, even maybe would left my stale saliva on you..
use your hands and shirt to wipe my nose..
stuff you with popcorn, put the hair clip on your hair, then laugh at you..
wont mind if i broke a nail, if my shirt got stain, if my face is comot...
dont mind going somewhere and do nothing just to spend time with loves one..
give my best to surprise, to spend, to do ridiculous things just for the sake of a smile on my loves one face..
worry bout the most ridiculous and nonsense thing..
be mad at you for 1 minute, then ask for hugs or cuddles the next minute..
shout to you then would be saying sorry in less than 5 minutes..
bug you for my everyday nonsense conversation and daily report..
take your things and stuff to keep and cuddle with at nite..
think and take cr of you more than myself..
able cry then smile on the next minute..

i cant list it all..
those who knows me, knows me..
i am who i am..
if you think i'm being ridiculous, nonsense, annoying..
my best advice, stay away..

nampak remeh kan?

Manusia sering leka..serta terlalu yakin.. leka terhadap ajal yang mampu datang pada bila2 masa..serta yakin terhadap perancangan akan datang yang belum tentu pasti..

‘jumpa esk k..bye, salam..’          nanti jumpe lg k..bye, salam..

Confirm ke jumpe lg? lupa ke yang ajal boleh datang selangkah selepas kite berpisah? Kita sering menganggap remeh, take things for granted, terhadap apa yang kite ucapkan, ape yg kite buat kt seseorang tu bila berhubung..tak kira la jumpe ke, ckp dlm fon ke, sms ke..

Kadang2 gaduh sebelum berpisah.. kadang2 tak piker ape pun, stakat bye je..kadang2 salam pun tak..

Cube fikir, kalau ditakdirkan owg tu pegi buat slama2nye, apa yg ayat terakhir kite kat die? Ape yg kite buat terakhir dgn die?

Susah sangat ke utk keluarkan kata2 pesan, take cr..hati2..elok2..atau mungkin pada ibu bapa, gf bf,  kawan2, ucapan syg tu..

Mmg la kalau kite pesan pun, klau da ajal tu, tetap ajal..tp sekurang2 nye seblum owg tu pergi, die tau yang kite ni ambil berat pasal die..kisahkan die..syg die..and mungkin kite sendri pun tade la rasa menyesal sgt klau itu ayat terakhir kite pada diorg..

Tapi terpulang pada masing2 utk menilai erti menghargai tu..bak kate seseorg..

‘masing2 da besar kan..pandai2 la jga diri..takkan nak kena pesan bru nak buat..’

Betul la tu..masing2 da besar..betul la tu..takyah pesan pun, diri sendri tau…

Tp bukan itu yg jd persoalan..bkn nye tak pandai jga diri..bkn nye kena pesan bru nak buat..tp nilai dan makna pesanan tu..bila kite ucapkan pesanan tu, bukan sekadar hati2, elok2, take cr..tp maksud di sebalik pesanan tu..supaya org tu tau yg kite sygkan mereka, kesahkan mereka dan ambil berat tentang mereka..

Tp of cos la..tak suma owg kite syg, kite ambil berat, kite kesah kan..mungkin kite mmg betul2 tak amik kesah pun psal owg tu..sbb tu bye je pun dah memadai.. one’s trash could be one’s treasure..mungkin org tu tak bernilai bg kite, tapi org tu amat bernilai bg yang laen..

Jd terpulang la pada kesadaran masing2..pada nilai seseorg tu di mata kita..tak susah pun untuk ucapkan kata2 tu..lg susah klau dah jd, bru kita nak menyesal dan terkilan..

‘len kli kan bleh jumpe..esk lusa ade lg..bukan nye tak blk sni lg..’

Ye lah awak..InsyaAllah esk lusa ade lg..InsyaAllah len kli bleh jmpe..InsyaAllah sy akan blk sna lg..

Tapi..andai Allah kate esk lusa tade utk sy, andai Allah kate len kli tapat jmpe, andai Allah kate sy tak blk sna lg, awak take cr la k..jga diri elok2..sentiasa hati2..n jgn lupa..sy sygkan awak..

kebiasaan..

selalu orang kate, bile kite ilang seseorang tu, cari je la owg baru..
mmg la spatut nye cmtu..
bkn spatut nye, mmg patut pun..
tp ape yg membuatkan kite susah sgt na cri owg bru utk ganti owg tu..?

bagi aku, satu nye sbb prasaan..
ye la, bile da sayang..
bukan senang nak lupakan..
tp ade je orang yg bleh lupakan sekelip mata..
tp selain perasaan tu, bg aku ade satu lg perkara yg buat kite susah nak lupakan..
kebiasaan..
ari2 kte msg die, ari2 kte call die, salu jumpe..
tetiba benda tu ilang..
tp ade owg kate, 'ala, bleh je kite cari org len utk ganti kan..so sma je ari2 kte msg, call, jmpe ngan org tu..'
so ape yg kehilangan sgt?
btul la tu..klau cite psl ari2 msg, cll, jmpe, ngan sesape pun kite leh buat...
tp yg kite rindukan tu adalah kebiasaan yg wjud antara kite dgn org tu..
contoh cam ckp gdnyte b4 tido ke, ckp luv u ke..ckp muah muah ke..
so katekan la owg baru tu tak ckp gdnyte b4 tido sepertimana kebiasaan kte dgn owg lama tu..
takkan la kte na kna ckp kt die, eh i biasa seblum tdo ckp gdnyte tau..
kan da ta sedap tu..
klau dgn owg lma, tayah ckp..da tau da..da biasa..

so its not bout cari pengganti,.
pengganti takkan actually ganti yg ilang tu..
but of cos pengganti akan create kebiasaan yg baru..
yg akan buat kite lupa pada kebiasaan lama..
maybe..

awak..
klau sy ckp dgn owg laen 'nak yuk..', diorg akan tanya 'yuk tu ape?'
klau sy buat tanda ni \('_')/ kat owg laen, diorg akan tanya, 'ape tu?'

tp klau dgn awk, awk da tau kan..
itu la beza owg len dgn awak..

random quotes.. =)

There comes a point where you have to realize that you'll never be good enough for some people, but that's not your problem.

 

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down, probably will.

even though she knows he doesn't deserve it, she still gives him every little piece of her. 

 

Nothing is permanent, especially people. Don't have your hopes high. Friends become strangers, lovers become friends & people leave. 

 

 
One day I hope you look back at what we had, and regret every single thing you did to let it end. 

 

 
Loving someone who doesn't feel the same way is like using a white crayon on white paper. It's always invisible.

 

 I wish I was the one that you wanted. 

 

 
Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose

 

 
I like how the people you love could ignore you like you've never existed

 

 
I'm not sure what scares me more, that you will never start loving me or that i will never stop loving you. 

All i need to know is that im something you've been missing. 

No matter what happens, no matter what we do, I'll always remember the first time I saw you. 

 

 

always.

satu persoalan yang aku mahupun engkau sendiri tak mampu untuk memberi jawapan..

apa kesudahan kita..

no matter how far we ran away,

no matter with how many others we've been,

we've always,

always ran back to each other again..
 always found our ways in each other arms..

i can but i can't..

my dear,

i may forgive you for everything you've ever done to me..
for hurting me..
for letting me down..
for letting me fall apart..
for letting me go..
for letting me fade..

but my dear,
i just can't forgive you for everything you've ever done to us..
for hurting us..
for letting us down..
for letting us fall apart..
for letting us go..
for letting us fade..

we were perfect..
but i guess perfect is simply not enough for you..
we were awesome..
but i guess two awesomes cancel each other out..

i'm sorry..
all that's left are memories..
hold on tight to that..
cuz if you let that fade too,
someday when you misses me more than ever,
you'll have nothing left..

take care..

love,
your used to be.

cuma 1 yang masih belum..

awak tau tak..

TAKDIR tu boleh buat external saya kna virus smpai saya terpaksa delete suma text2 awk, gamba2 awk, gamba2 kte, video awk, record suara awk, suma nye la yg saya simpan..

TAKDIR tu boleh buat hp sy jatuh longkang sampai abes ilang suma text, gmba, video, record, suma yg sy tak move kan ke external tu, suma yg betul2 itu je yg tinggal lpas external sy tu kena format..

tapi kan awak..

TAKDIR tu masih belum ilangkan segala ingatan, segala kenangan, segala sayang, segala kasih, segala rindu saya kat awak dari hati saya ni, dari pala otak saya ni..

my vow.

i'll never leave u..

even when u leave me..

i'll always b by ur side..

even when u're not..

i'll stand by u through prosperity nor adversity..

even when u left me in despair..

i'll make sure u laugh..

even when i'm crying..

i'll wish for ur happiness..

even when i'm hurting..

i'll be here waiting for u..

even when u're gone missing..

i'll wish for ur safety..

even when i'm surrounded with troubles..

i'll wish d best for u..

even when i'm at my worst..

random entry, thanks to boredom.

in IT class ryte now..
(^__^)
klau korang follow entry aku yg lepas,
aku ade menyatakan ketidaksukaan aku terhadap klas ni..
sooo...
bile da kelas ni, dlm makmal komputer pula tu..
ape lg..
on9 la..hehe..
walaupun die ugut kitorg..

'jgn on9 k..

sy bleh tau klau kamu on9..

akan kuar notifications kt pc sy ni (pc depan) klau kamu on9.."

perghh...

jujur...

nampak bodoh sgt ke kitorg ni?

haha.. =p

kemon la miss..

jgn malukan diri sendri..huhu..

lapar...blum breakfast lg..

lau aku tau die na masuk lmbat, konpem aku g breakfast dlu td..

actually,  aku mmg da tau..

sbb mmg kebiasaan die masuk lambat..

tp, sebagai seorang student yang berwawasan (mata ke atas, tgn ke dada),

aku datang la tak terlalu lambat..(lmbat 15 minit je..)

itupun die ta masuk lg..-__-"

tiap kli die kate, be punctual..

hah..bru aku tau punctual die tu means 30 to 40 minutes late..! hehe

after dis trus klas PR pula..yg lect PR ni pula ske masuk awal..

haila..

ble mau mam ni...

mam owg kang..

huhu..

hurm...wut else, wut else..

tu je kot...

da makin malas na wat entry skrg ni..

sbb da makin malas na berfikir..

huhu..

k la, papai...=)

kau nampak tak..

emak kejut anak g skolah..
anak ey tnak bgn..
emak ey pun bising la sbb anak ey da brape kli ponteng skola..
tetiba anak ey bengang, lansung ditempelak emak ey tu..
di marah ey..
si emak pun kecik la ati..
lansung berkata...
'suka kau la..bukan mak yg nak jwb exam sok..bkn mak yg susah klau tak lepas skola sok..'
tapi..
esok nye, si emak ni kejut lg anak tu..
pjuk lg utk g skola..

ok, ape tetiba cite psal emak ngan anak ni?
camni..
nampak tak cmne syg nye mak tu kat anak..
wlaupun dimarah, wlaupun kecik ati..
tp tetap gak die ade..
tetap gak die ta ptus asa..

aku tak ckp, syg aku kt kau mcm syg emak kat anak..
sbb lam dunia ni tade yg bleh lawan syg mak kat anak..
tp paling tidak, aku nak kau sedar, cmne aku sygkan kau..
aku rsa kau da ckup nmpak mcm mane slama ni,
aku ta pnah ptus asa utk care psl kau..
wlaupun kau marah aku, kau tempelak aku..
wlaupun berkali2 aku ckp aku ta pduli dah..

tp kau pun tau tu suma cuma kat mulut..
tiap kli, masih jugak aku kejut kau tiap pagi..
pjuk kau..nasihat kau..
mmg..mmg aku marah kau, aku bebel kat kau.
tp sbb ape? sbb aku syg kau..
aku bebel utk kau buat bnda yg btul..
sbb aku peduli..

bukan aku tnak give up..
tp jujur aku tak tau cmne..
ati ni letih merajuk..letih kecik ati..
tp masih lg aku buat bnda tu sbb aku syg kau..
and aku care psal kau..

aku tapat pape untung pun..
kena marah lg ade la..
kna tempelak..
merajuk, kecik ati..
tp aku tetap gak buat..
sbb ape yg aku nak ialah utk tgk kau sihat, senang idup..
bukan niat aku nak menyemak kan pale kau..
nak menyibuk idup kau..

kau senang sok, aku ta mintak pape pun..
kau bebas utk kongsi kesenangan kau dgn sape pun..
mmg slama ni pun, aku ta pna dpt pape dri kau..
dlu ye..skrg tak..
tp klau kau susah, mungkin la kau takkan cri aku pun..
tp spatut nye kau tau, aku la org yg akan tetap ade dgn kau
waktu kau susah, waktu kau sakit..
aku akan tetap jd owg yg pduli psal kau..

kau nmpak tak suma tu..?
kau tak nmpak..
sbb kau terlalu sibuk dgn msalah kau..
yang kau rsa hanya kau sorang tanggung..
yg membuatkan kau rsa da tanak idup..
nak trus lelap dan ta bgn lg..
kau dah ta nmpak alasan utk kau trus idup..

tp kau ta nmpak..
aku yg setia menanti kau kat sini..
aku yg sedia sama memikul beban kau..
aku yg cube memberi sokongan..
aku yg perlukan kau utk trus bgn n hidup..
sbb kau antara alasan nape aku nak hidup..

sejuta maaf andai aku melukai mu..
andai aku menambah bebanmu..
niat di hati cuma utk melihat kau senang..
agar hati ini turut senang..

take care.