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LOVE is like MAGIC ..but sometimes, MAGIC is nothing more than just an ILLUSION ..

Friday, December 30, 2011

bersabar lah wahai hati. =)

pertemuan mencipta kenangan, itu takdir..
kenangan mencipta pertemuan, itu jodoh..

persoalan nye..
ye ke jodoh? 
atau sekadar kerinduan? 

salu owg kate,
kepercayaan atau hubungan tu mcm kertas..
skali da renyuk, ratakan camne pun, da ta cantik..

 
ade gak yg kate..mcm kaca..
klau da pecah, tampal blk cmne pun, ade kesan..


ade tu plak kate mcm besi..
klau da bengkok, ketuk cmne pun da ta lurus..


ok..skrg ni version aku plak..
bg aku, kepercayaan or hubungan ni, mcm movie..
aha, modern skit..

camni..
korang penah je kan tgk movie yg klaka gle tuttt...
mmg terbaek pecah pewot la tgk..
pastu, beberapa bulan kemudian, keluar lak yg no 2..


contoh cam kungfu panda 1 then kungfu panda 2..

korang perasan tak, cite yg no 2 tu, dah tak sekelakar, sepecah pewot yg 1st..??
kire mcm korang da leh expect lawak2 die..korang da tau..
haa.. cmtu gak dgn kepercayaan or hubungan..
second time, selalu nye tak menjadi..
ta au la knape..
mungkin sbb keadaan da brubah..
or mungkin org tu sendri yg da brubah..
wlaupun kite cube utk perbaiki hubungan tu..
letak blakang sgala kisah lama..
bukak buku bru n try utk gmbira n bahagia mcm dlu blk..
tp sumhow, things different..
awkward tu wujud..
hambar and tawar..



btul la org kate, skali kite wat silap, seumur idup owg ingat..
mmg susah kot kite na lupekan bnda tu cmtu je..
paling tidak pun mesti ade skit ungkit mengungkit..
atau pantang ade bau2 bacang skit, mesti mula na menuduh..
padahal owg tu ta buat pape pun..
tp tu la..prasangka tu da wujud..



aku tertanya gak..
nape cmtu..
sedangkan sayang tu msih wujud..
keinginan tu ade..

entah la..
kadang2 sesetengah perkara dlm idup ni, susah na explain..
so, bile perkara camni jd, nak tnak, kite kena la trima..



dan yg penting kite kna trima dgn redha..
which means, no blaming..
no uh..
mmg bile jd sesuatu tu, kite akan salu cari sumthin/sumone to blame..
tp kan..kdg2, its easier to simply put the blame to urself..
tayah na salahkan owg sgt la..


bnda takkan jd klau kite sendri ta buat..
lgpun, ble kite pk cmtu, tade la kite na benci2 marah2 org ta tentu psal..
betul, owg tu pun ade salah..
tp klau nak salahkan die je, salah kite cmne lak?
tiap owg ade salah silap kan..termasuk la dri sendri..

oleh itu, kite percaya je lah pada tuhan..mmg wajib percaya pun kan..
he knows wut he's doing..
its his game..
so let him control..
some things are just not meant to be..
why?
DIA je yg tau sebab ey..


sumtimes, its best to let past, stay past..
biar lah bnda tu jd pengajaran..
pengalaman utk mematangkan kite..

mmg la sedih..
pedih..
rindu..
gala bagai..
tp, na wat cmne kan..
wut doesnt kill you, makes you stronger..
Bill Cosby said, if you can laugh at it, u will survive it..


better kite left things as it is..
jdkan kenangan tu, kenangan yg manis utk kite igt..
dripada kite paksa bnda yg dah mmg takleh..
eventually, tinggalkan kite dgn kenangan yg buruk..



yang penting, 
jgn sesekali menyesal dgn ape yg jadi..
sakit mmg sakit..
tp igt tak bahagia yg pernah dtg dlu?
haa..so, jgn ckp menyesal..
berterima kasih..



dat sumone will always remain as sumone special in ur life..
n trust me, that sumone pun,
deep inside of them, mesti igt kite..
tipu la kan klau ta igt lansung..
 n i dun think there is hate..
bkan senang tau nak bnci owg yg kite penah syg..
(^_^)


jangan salahkan org jika mereka tak mampu untuk menyayangi kite..
sebagaimana kite menyayangi mereka..
bukankah jika ikhlas, tak minta dibalas?
mereka pun sama seperti kite..
ta mampu mengawal ape yg mereka rsa..
jika mereka tak menyalahkan kite kerna sayangkan mereka,
kenapa mesti kite salahkan mereka utk sebaliknya?
bersabar lah wahai hati..
=)


last, belajar lah utk menghargai ape yg kite ade..
hubungan, orang..
sebab bile skali kite da hilang bnda tu,
wlaupun dtg blk,
benda da tak sama..



Thursday, December 22, 2011

IT and LAW class..

assalamualaikum..
ok, nape ngan due kelas ni?
ape persamaan antara due kelas ni?

camni..

aku masuk kelas..

lecturer tu mula..

aku pulak mula..

sampai abes klas...

ditambah lg dgn pale aku yg semak lately ni..
makin tak la aku na focus..
maaf ye..
so aku just na ckp aku ta ske ari khamis..
sbb ari khamis ade due2 subject ni..
tak klaka weh..
kbye!

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

tQ..=)

walaupun kite gaduh..
walaupun kite salah paham..
walaupun kite bertengkar..
walaupun kite saling menyepi..
walaupun perasaan cinta tu takde..

tapi..

saya tau antara kite tak pernah ade benci..
saya tau antara kite tak pernah ade dendam..
saya tau awak sayang saya..
saya tau awak tak pernah jauh dri saya..

sebab..

kite sentiasa ade untuk satu sma lain..
kite setia menemani antara satu sama lain..
hati kite tak pernah jauh..
andai tiada, kite pasti akan merindu..
meski kadang kala lambat utk kite sedar hadirnye perasaan tu..
kite sentiasa saling menjaga hati..
kite sentiasa saling menjaga senyum, gelak tawa..
bile awak mula menjauh, sy hadir membawa awak kembali..
dan bile saya mula menjauh, awak sentiasa hadir membawa sy kembali..

biar lah perasaan cinta tu tak wujud..
asalkan sayang itu sentiasa hadir..

tQ awak sbb menjadi yg istimewa dlm idup sy..


Sunday, December 18, 2011

hargai yang remeh itu..

saya bengang bile awk sendawa kuat2..
segan la skit..
saya bengang bile saya text yunk..
awk reply yunk yunk yuk pagi2 bukak priuk..-__-"
saya bengang bile saya tgh na manja2 awk bleh bantai tido..
saya bengang bile kuar awk msti dtg lambat..
saya bengang bile dlm kete, awk suke dgr lagu mlayu lama2..
pastu na berebut radio ngan saya..
drive diam2 bleh ta?
saya bengang ble sy tgh bosan, awk tido mati mcm tunggul..
saya kena call beratus2 kli utk kejut awk..
saya bengang bile saya tgh serius, awk buat lawak bodoh..
saya bengang bile awak menempek2 kat leher saya..
mcm lintah gergasi tahu?
saya bengang bile awk tarik2, lambung2 sy sesuka ati..
mentang la awak besar n kuat...
saya bengang bile saya pkai ladies2, awk drop2 saya..
saya cube berlawa utk awk tahu?
saya bengang bile awk drop2 saya..
smpai rasa cam na nanges tahu?
saya bengang bile awak kacau saya..
awak kate antu suke culik budak cengeng..

tapi..

walau bengang mcm mane pun saya..
saya ta penah bosan or muak buat bnda tu suma..
sbb awak sentiasa tahu mcm mane na ilangkan muncung saya...

dan..
baru saya sedar..
yang buat saya bengang tu lah..
yang saya rindu bile awk da tade..

dan..
perkara2 tu la yang membezakan awk dgn orang laen..

awak..
saya rindu awak..
='(

video


in the end..
its these small things that u'll remember..
the little imperfections..
that make them perfect for you..

my dear..


My dear..
Thank you for being a man, Who always see me as beautiful and cute no matter how ridiculous I look, sweaty and comot or even when I am at my worst..
Thank you for being a man, With such patience treating me so well regardless my misbehave, my inconsiderate sulking and my childish requests as well as thoughts..
Thank you for being a man, Who never lost his temper despite my never ended accusation along with my thoughtless whining..
Thank you for being a man, who never yells at me for every slap, pinch, messing with his hair or for the countless cigarette thrown away.
Thank you for being a man, who never once asked for my money regardless how many he spent for me.
Thank you for being a man, who always gives his level best although he is being tormented by all the blames from others who simply do not know the deep inside of him.
Thank you for being a man, Who would jokes just for the sake of a smile on my face regardless of his own bleeding heart..
Thank you for being a man, Who took care of me with such full of concern without giving a care about his own behalf..
Thank you for being a man, who would hold me, comfort me for every time I’ve cried..
Thank you for being my pillow and cuddled me up when I’m asleep..
Thank you for staying on the phone, keeping me company till I fell asleep..
And most of all..
Thank you for being a friend, a best friend, a partner, a brother, a guardian..
Thank you for being my abg, my yunk, my dear, my papa, my panda, my bantal..
Thank you for being my everything..
I remember once I was so upset with you for not prioritizing me..instead of losing your temper, tenderly u asked me whether if I understand your situation. It reminds me of how selfish and unappreciated I am towards you..
I used to cry whenever u hold me tight and close..cuz i was so afraid of time passing by which I know will eventually drawing us apart..cuz it was such a beautiful, precious, perfect moment, and I know, none perfect would last forever..
as my tears falling, u held me tighter..u whispered words of comfort..for each and every time, I would feel safe..as if nothing could go wrong..everythin’s goin to be just fine..
I’m swry..I miss u..I miss me..I miss us..

Thursday, December 8, 2011

aku cuma manusia biasa..

status fb aku : berapa lama bleh tahan tak dihargai?

kenapa aku letak status cmtu..?
mesti la sbb aku rsa tak dihargai..

betul..
kite tak leh tamak..
kite tak leh harapkan yg lebih2..

tapi..
aku manusia biasa..
yg punya sifat cemburu, terasa hati..
yg punya rasa ingin memiliki..

betul..
kalau ikhlas, tak mintak dibalas..
jgn harapkan org utk layan kite, mcm mane kite lyn org..

tapi..
aku manusia biasa..
yg punya hati dan perasaan..
yg punya rasa sakit hati dan air mata..

aku duduk menangis..
seorang sahabat bertanya..
kenapa kau menangis? die bukan tau pun kau nanges..
aku jwb..aku menangis bkn utk die tau...aku menanges utk lepaskan rasa sakit dlm ati aku ni..
ta pnah pun aku berniat nak die tau aku nanges..sbb aku ta penah slahkan die..aku ta slahkan sesapa..

aku paham..
bkan aku seorang yg terluka..
die pun turut sma terluka..
masing2 punya sejarah..
dan aku berjanji akan ada di sisi nya, cuba mengubat luka nye..

tp..
die pun kena ingat n paham..
aku pun punya luka..
malah, aku terlebih dahulu terluka dripada nya..
jd, salah ke klau aku mengharap utk die turut di sisi ku membantu membalut luka?

atau mungkin aku perlu terlebih dahulu mengubat luka nya hingga sembuh?
baru kemudian giliran ku?
mungkin..
tp syg..saat luka mu sembuh, luka ku dah bernanah..

aku tau..
kau da cube yg terbaik..
tp aku juga tau, kau mampu utk memberi yg lebih terbaik dripada itu..
mungkin aku tak layak utk menerima nya..
mungkin aku hanya layak menerima sebegini...

sejuta maaf...
kerna tak mampu membahagiakan kamu..
kerna tak mampu mengukir senyum ikhlas di bibir mu..

aku bukan bodoh..
aku bukan buta..
malah, orang buta pun mampu nampak..
lain layanan nye antara yg syg dan tidak..
antara memerlukan dan tidak..
perbuatan lg terang dri perkataan kan..
dan, perbuatan mu jelas..sgt jelas..



macam mane kite na berputus asa, dgn perkara yg kite perlu..
terluke, sakit, perit, pedih..
aku tetap di sini..
sbb aku tak tahu mcm mane utk berputus asa dgn kamu..
sbb aku ta mampu tanpa kamu..

kalau lah aku bleh buat die rasa ape yg aku rsa..
ckup lah sehari..utk kau tau, utk kau paham..
bkn aku mintak harta kemewahan die..
bkn aku mntak masa hidup nya..
aku cuma mintak sedikit perhatian, secarik kasih syg, secubit penghargaan..
dan yg paling aku mintak, secebis makna kehadiran aku dlm idup nya..

jd, berbalik pada soklan td..
smpai bile bleh tahan tak dihargai?
jawapan aku..
aku akan tetap ade di sini, selagi kau perlukan aku..
tp, saat kau da ta perlukan aku, pegi la tinggalkan aku..
sbb jika kau tunggu utk aku yg melangkah pergi, ta mungkin..

Sunday, December 4, 2011

tapi die bukan..

die salu msg sy..
die salu call sy..
die salu na borak ngan sy lma2..
die sanggup dtg jauh2 na jmpe sy..
die sanggup na ulang alik amik anta sy..
die salu ty sy da mam lum..
die salu ty sy kt mane..
die salu ty sy ok ke ta..
die salu ckp take cr..
die salu ajak sy g jln2 ke, tgk wyg ke..
walaupun tiap kli sy bg alasan..
tp die try gak len kli..

tapi..

die bkn boyfren sy..
saya salu tetanya..
mane boyfren sy..
nape die ta mcm tu..
die ta syg sy ke..
 nape owg len yg lyn sy cmtu dan bukan die..

awak...
sy ta mintk gayut berjam2 lam hp..
sy ta mintak tiap mlm g dating..
sy ta mintk awak dtg jauh2 ari2.,

sy cuma mintk kdg2 awak msg sy..
sy cuma mintak kdg2 awk call sy..
sy cuma mintk kdg2 awk tnjuk yg awk rindu sy..
sy cuma mintk kdg2 awk tnjuk awk risaukan sy..

awak..
btul ke awak bf sy..;(

miss you..

Thursday, December 1, 2011

untitled.



bagaimana cara utk mu bahagia
habis ku menyerah jalani semua
dah pelbagai kata ku ungkap percuma
agar kau percaya cinta ku berharga

dah puas ku menahan
mempertahankan cintaku
namun kau begitu saja
tak pernah merindu

sungguh aku tak bisa
sampai kapan pun tak bisa
membenci dirimu
sesungguhnya aku tak mampu

sulit utk ku bisa
sgt sulit ku tak bisa
memisahkan segala
cinta dan benci..

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

playing god


1.Put your music library on shuffle.
2.For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3.You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.
4.Ok, go!

1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say
speak now
2. How would you describe yourself?
back to december

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
teman tapi mesra
4. How do you feel today?
take over
5. What is your life’s purpose?
when i'm gone
6. What's your motto?
cela
8. What do you think of your parents?
the pieces dont fit anymore
9.What do you think about very often?
 thank you Allah
10. What is 2 + 2?
meet me halfway
11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?
sejauh mungkin
12. What do you think of the person you like?
 jangan pernah berubah

13. What is your life story?
jar of hearts
14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
ku ukir indah nama mu
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
derita merindu
16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
ku ingin selamanya
17. What will they play at your funeral?
i like girls

18. What is your biggest fear?
maria
19. What is your biggest secret?
demikianlah
20. What will you post this as?
playing god

100 truths


WHAT WAS YOUR :
1. Last beverage : 100 plus
2. Last phone call : daddy ♥
3. Last text message : daddy ♥
4. Last song you listened to : mockingbird by eminem
5. Last time you cried : yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER :
6. Dated someone twice : yes.
7. Been cheated on : At all the time.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it : No.
9. Lost someone special : yes.
10. Been depressed : Sometimes.
11. Been drunk and threw up : No.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS : 
12 : White
13 : blue
14 : Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU :
15. Made a new friend : Yes.
16. Fallen out of love : nope. luv him till d end.
17. Laughed until you cried : sure have.
18. Met someone who changed you : Yes.
19. Found out who your true friends were : yeah!
20. Found out someone was talking about you : Yes.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list : yes. ;)
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life : most of them.
24. Do you have any pets : Cats.
25. Do you want to change your name : No..
26. What did you do for your last birthday? : flour war with frens!.
27. What time did you wake up this morning? : 0945 AM.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night : online..

ABOUT YOU :
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for : to have him  in my arms..
30. Last time you saw your Mother : last monday..;(
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : My love life.
32. What are you listening to right now : sound of the fan in the room
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? : nope.
34. Who's getting on your nerves right now : bitch.
36. Whats your real name : Nur Atiqah bt Ibrahim
37. Nicknames : iqa, atiq, tiqa, dekqa, dak atiq
38. Birth month : january
39. Zodiac sign : capricorn
40. Male or female : Female.
41. Primary School : Sek. Keb. Rahang
42. Secondary School : Sek. Men. Keb. King George V.
43. High school/college : Uitm, Lendu
44. Write whatever you want here : i miss him.
45. Long or short hair? : long hair.
46. Height : dunno.
47. Do you have a crush on someone : yes? ;p
48. What do you like about yourself : a lil bit here n there..
49. Piercings : nope.
50. Tattoos : No.
51. Righty or lefty : lefty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery : None.
53. First piercing : never had one.
54. First best friend : Siti Nursalwani.
55. First sport you joined : basketball.
56. First vacation: er..cant remember..
58. First pair of trainers: None.

RIGHT NOW :
59. Eating : pringles.
60. Drinking : Nothing.
61. I'm about to : jump on d bed n hav a nap.
62. Listening to : again, bunyi kipas..
63. Waiting for : prince charming?

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids : InsyaAllah :)
65. Get married : Yes, InsyaAllah.
66. Career : successful businesswoman.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes : lips. ;)
68. Hugs or kisses : Hugs!
69. Shorter or taller : Taller.
70. Older or Younger : older
71. Romantic or spontaneous : Can I have both?
72. Nice stomach or nice arms : Nice stomach.
73. Sensitive or loud : Loud.
74. Hook-up or relationship : Relationship.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger : No.
77. Drank hard liquor : No.
78. Lost glasses/contacts : Yes,.
79. Sex on first date : Hell no.
80. Broken someone's heart : I didn't mean it.
82. Been arrested : yes..=)
83. Turned someone down : Yes.
84. Cried when someone died : Yes.
85. Fall in love with your friend : Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN :
86. Yourself : I do.
87. Miracles: Sometimes.
88. Love at first sight : yes.
89. Heaven : Yes.
90. Santa Claus : No.
91. Kiss on the first date : No.
92. Angels : Yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time : Yes. I did it before.
95. Did you sing today : Yes. A must.
96. Ever cheated on somebody : Yes.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go : early 2010
98. The moment you would choose to re-live : having him with me.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love : Yes.
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths : No.